Friday, 8 November 2013

Camperdown Cruise

Well it's been a few weeks now since I was part of the Miss Camperdown Cruise pin up competition, which is a feature of the amazing Camperdown Cruise weekender (if you haven't been you should definitely check it out

If you have read mine and Jus' bucket list blogs you'll know that being a part of this competition was on my list of things to do in my lifetime, and how nervous I was about participating. Well I'm so very pleased to say it was an incredibly amazing experience!

The lead up wasn't as nerve wracking as I thought it would be, maybe because I was having so much fun planning my outfits and routines, playing wth make up and hair, and generally having a lot of fun getting creative! (Mental note, must do more creative things in the future.)

It wasn't until I was frantically packing my car the day before that the panic and anxiety set in, what if I forgot something? Have I really thought this through? What if everyone thinks my routines are ridiculous? What if they don't like me? What if I'm not really pin up material and people think I don't belong there? ( I won't go on, as it only got more ridiculous from there haha.)

I honestly could not have been more wrong. My wonderful friend Claire had organised a house for us to stay in with many of the other people involved in the competition and all of these amazing women could not have been anymore lovely, warm, caring and supportive of myself and everyone else around them.

On the day itself it was the same. The organisers, the judges, the participants, everyone was so lovely and welcoming that it really helped to ease my anxiety and feel much more relaxed about getting out on stage. With that said though, it was still extremely challenging, but I felt such a sense of accomplishment once I was done! It wasn't about winning or losing for me at all, the winning was just getting out there, not letting anxiety win, and showing it who's boss!

Nervously waiting to head out on stage as Lorelai Rose the mechanic.

Lorelai Rose, the icecream vendor.

Lorelai Rose ready to be picked up for the Prom.

Obviously these are a few selfies I took on the day, for the amazing photos of not only myself but the amazing winner, runner up and other competitors (who were all equally stunning and wonderful in my book!) check out the official photos by Robin Sharrock at the Miss Camperdown Facebook page.

I think the best part of it all for me though, was the amount of love and support I received from my family and friends. Even ones that don't quite understand why I love pin up so much, or why competing was such a big deal for me all went out of their way to make sure I felt loved and supported. It was so wonderfully overwhelming I can't even begin to say how much I appreciate them and how lucky I feel to have such amazing people in my life.

One of those incredible people in my life, the gorgeous Nat who willingly dressed up as a guy for me to be my prom date on stage! (Nat, you're an absolute legend).

All in all it was such a wonderful weekend, and although my anxiety will probably never completely go away, doing things like entering Miss Camperdown make me feel that every day I'm getting a little better at being able to manage it, and that I don't have to let it stop me from doing amazing things and being the person I aspire to be.

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